YOUR KID ATE WHAT??!

last nite after an exhausting bit of socializing, reminiscin, and pondering, and head-shaking, and staring (with melissa and briefly liz and lastly suellen), i got home at 10.30 POOPED.

I shoulda gone straight to sleep, cuz i coulda, and i needed to.. i talked to will a little, he'd been sleep since 7, fell asleep reading...........i had missed jahmilah's bday class at peterson and kimball.. my eyeballs hurt and my eyelids were huggin em....... but i didnt get her her brownies.......i ate some of "mine" (in a separate, smaller container) for breakfast just now

i went to read myself to sleep but i turned on the tv.... on tlc was a show called--in all-caps: "YOUR KID ATE WHAT?!" ... first kid swallowed 3 tiny magnets from a toy... now, they immediately went to the doctor and saw this from x-ray. but 5 weeks later he starts barfing up bile and they said he had 7 inches of gangrene in his belly and blah blah and theres hair everywhere in there and--why didnt you take the MAGNETS out of the kid when you first saw em? 2 were stuck together and "no problem" but there was a third with no mate. now it has lots to play with. and your kid barfed bile!

next kid swallowed 40 pellets of rat poison. "four times over the legal limit"--wait, what?

i missed jahmilah's class also because i was showin suellen africa pics (on camera...woof) and with some clever fast-forwarding adn selective video-watching we got thru em all, right over to my birthday pics

i got paid for my first haymarket day!

suellen said to insert me into her references and call c4 back.. who knows.....

she also informed me, when i revealed my giddiness for giraffes, that they have the largest heart of all land animals, no defenses, and never make a sound. (makin em the poster-animal for nonviolent communication) ......
biggest heart=made my little heart swell up. no defenses=wait, thats passive...and dangerous.. i dont like that... no protection....how are they still around? (things that make you go..........). never make a sound=jesus. giraffes=jesus? well i thought about how, from what i hear, when jesus was gettin, you know, that he never said a word (or did he say a little somethin nice or somethin about forgiveness or somethin? i dunno, refer to page abillion in your Book)........anyhoo, it made me think of them in danger not making sounds. but that means they dont make happy sounds either.

suellen told me hers was voted "deadliest scream" in self-defense class. i always wonder if ill be able to say anything, much less scream if im really in trouble. like my friend was the other nite, drunk, alone at a blue line gettin ruffed up by some man (bruises and scratches on her abdomen) with no one around.. she made it back down the stairs where a cta dude eventually was like "hey! leave her alone!"

f the city man

i had bad dreams that nite

i couldnt scream in my dream